Feeling of "Being Unsure"....

Ever had that feeling creeping inside you or floating around you which says that something needs to be done but what ...we are not sure.....time and again i feel that this occurs a lot with the people of my generation or may be with the generation to come also.......never gave it a thought that why does it happen.....initially i thought just that its that bug in my brain which no anti-virus has been able to quarantine till date....but then i guess my generation (am i being to generic ...i don't know...please excuse me for exercising my right to free expression ).....is infested with it........

Well then why.......the probable thought that i have been able to derive out are not that much appealing but still convince me to some extent........for me something which needs to be done is sometimes "change the technology that i am working on" or "change my domain all over" or "change my job" or "change something which helps me stop thinking of these changes"...........confused? so was (is me) I....

Then sometimes "i should start learning something new "..what ...'i should learn guitar ...." or ''i should learn drums which i think i can be really good at" or "learn something which doesn't give me time to think about learning the other two things".... then it also happens that " i don't want to have anytime for myself..." why? many reasons....which compel me to not think about myself......then what do i do to achieve that....."hmmm....make a movie" ( i am serious ) ....."do photography' ( to cover the causes i really like everyone to see....the face of pain ....the face of success...the face of humanity and the humans who kill humanity.....).... why so much is happening..........
I figured it out to some extent....the world around us has fueled this great drive of change.....its changing so fast and people are moving in and out ....up the ladder...that it has created a huge appetite for taking risks and learning new things ......its the want for change to achieve that pinnacle of success in professional life that generates so much confusion in us.......well i guess i have figured it out for myself...and my efforts are now much more concentrated an properly guided........that's what has been taught to me by life......"GUIDE YOUR EFFORTS AND ENERGY"........

Now comes the question to self...we want to be everywhere proving every point and making people understand and believe that you are the best one around here......but then....as someone said to me ....its better to be a truck that ferries cows from "A" farm than the truck which ferries dung from all the farms .....yes...every one have their silver lining.....discover that......and uncover it to shine through the crowds......believe me you will........and its movies/photography for me ...:)......behold i will be on imdb soon......:)......... for the last reasons.......i'll let it remained unpublished ...since i have to analyze that for myself... just myself.....:)